I guess I can let the details out about the Secret Plan from late last/earlier this year. I talked about the Secret Plan quite a bit. The super secret subtitle was : Get Cute And Leave. I totally changed the way I ate, exercised, etc. from October 2009 until the middle of January 2010 in the hopes of losing weight so that I wouldn't need surgery or have as many health issues as I do. I also wanted out of a miserable marriage, but didn't have the self confidence to believe that I could be on my own in the emotional/physical state I had gotten myself into.
Then all hell broke loose in my life. I spent some time in forced hibernation... and all hope seemed lost. I had lost 40 lbs, but everything in my life was conspiring against me and I was really afraid that I'd find those 40 plus some. Luckily, on the other side of that ordeal, and some 8-9 months later, I only gained about 10-15 lbs back. It's time to get back on the program. Although, since I'm not nearly as unhappy as I was back then, none of it needs to be a secret. I realize that the holiday season is right here and I'm kinda re-starting this at the most difficult time. But I want it again. I don't want to have surgery. I don't want to be tiny. I just want to be cute. The Plan will now be subtitled: Get Cute and Learn to Love Myself Again. I think I'll start by getting my eyebrows waxed.
For the record, my dear friend, you are, and always have been,and always will be cute. Keep up the fight to get healthy for yourself and your son. Don't give up. Even though I'm miles away and we may not speak as often as we should, I feel I'm always with you.
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